Vie.

if tomorrow never comes.

Yes, if tomorrow never comes.

It's a day where I wonder if tomorrow will ever come. Wondering, because it's such an important day, tomorrow.

My grandad's birthday, my parents' wedding anniversary and, my birthday.

It's hard to sit a day wondering if tomorrow will ever come. It's hard to rest your head in a pillow to sleep. It's hard to decide what to wear and what to do. It's hard to swallow lunch thinking if this is the last lunch you'll ever have. It's all hard. Everything becomes a tad bit harder than usual.

I started my day with a warm shower at 11.30 a.m this morning. While I scrub my hair, I let one hand go off my head and onto my forehead. I start making the sign of the cross. I pray out loud :

I thank the Lord for having blessed me with yet another beautiful day to witness all His beautiful creations. Next, I ask for forgiveness. I apologize for not speaking to Him for days now. Then, I pray for Sheyna that she may be fully recovered, Laila that she may sit through her papers well and family that we may remain together as one in love and in God's name.

I finish this short prayer with request of guidance and blessings and seal it with the sign of the cross once more.

I continue scrubbing. When I got out of the shower, the daily routine took it's place.
Rude enough, it did not ask me for whatsoever permission. In fact, I didn't mind.
I love my routines.


Cupcake Brown, the author of A Piece Of Cake, was kind enough to keep my mind off those.

Anyway, I got my clothes sorted out for tonight and tomorrow, I've painted my nails, washed my hair&blew it dry. I know. Well, what can I say? Girls are pretty amazing huh?
We're all like, Superwomen or something.

So, if tomorrow never comes :

Grandpa,
Happy Birthday. I pray that you are happy & safe up in heaven. I love you dearly.
No matter I've never met you, you brought up a son, who is and will be, abundantly blessed.
He is now my father, an amazing man. A man no scientist can replicate. A man I cannot love any lesser. He has married Mummy, a woman- no words can describe her, for many, many years now. They both are taking care of Bernard and I well. You know that. Love you.

Mum & Dad,
Happy Anniversary! I wonder : "How is it like being married to one person for twenty over years, go through (really, really, really) thick & thin, and still be a happy couple?"
Husband & wife, and happy, till today. Amazing. The mixture of both your beings, has enhanced and still is enhancing, Bernard and I. I love you both so much. To thank you two for everything so far, I would need a robotic hand and everlasting paper to finish the list. This is not the end, I will still be thanking you for more to come. Hope you guys have an awesome anniversary.
It's time to celebrate your anniversary drastically to remember and maintain that love you first had for each other at the wedding. It's time to go big!
Love you both so much. I owe it all to you both.

Jacq (me),
It's not everyday you get to turn seventeen. It's not everyday you get to smile wide and show all your treated teeth and have absolutely no sadness in you, be it inside or on the out.
So SMILE cause you're turning SEVENTEEN! :D
I love you so much. Have an awesome 17th birthday.


It's 5 p.m, I should prolly go read more on Cupcake.
Poor girl, got raped, eleven years old.. what's next?

Pictures of Grease Lightning & birthday & dinner sooooooooooon. Stay tuned :)

posted by jacquelinev. @ 4:24:00 PM Comments: 1